wa- boosh

hmmm i dont even know where to begin. so lets just let it flow out....

i love the changes weve seen throughout the year. trying on new looks, new music, new friends, new personalities, new everything. some worked, some didnt. some people will push and crawl over whoever they can and change in whatever way they can as long as they are benefitted, no matter who they are crushing under them. some people are lucky enough to have people who will help them rise above so that they dont have to crush anyone else. some people are content where they are.

i wonder where i fall from other peoples perspective? i mean i know im not the nicest person and ive definately hurt my fair share of people, but ive never pushed anyone down for my own personal gain, i dont think. o well, i dont know. maybe hit me back with what you think on that topic.

the one thing i am greatful for is the people who have sense enough to a. realize that something is wrong. and b. actually want to help.
ive seen people who know something is wrong and just sit by because they are more comfortable with the position they are in now because theyve trampled over me and the people like me to get there.

in the end, cuz this week officially marks the end, i am glad that events have turned out the way that they have. because ive seen who has stuck by me and who has fallen to the wayside and who has pushed me down. these people are the people that ive cared about throughout this year and my life, and some of them i do wish hadnt made choices theyve made, and some of them i wish had made those choices sooner, and some of them i somewhat wish both...

now that it is all over, and my plan to not talk to certain people has pretty much prevailed, it marks the beginning. my favorite part about this beginning is how much fun i am going to have erasing this year from my memory (permanently?). mwahaha. =-]