somehow

so i gave a friend some advice today, and i thought it was worthy advice, even if it doesnt pertain to you.
i was talking with a friend who is going through a hard time about how she enjoys swimming and it helps her clear her head. but this friend has always had a hard life and hard time dealing with it. so when we began talking, i began to compare life to the pool:

-life can start to rain on you, then it can start to pour. you wont even notice until a flash flood hits you. you can dive as deep as you want into the water but you will always come up for air. and until you can learn to tread water, i will always be your lifeline.-
i love you v, i hope you can make it through.

today i was thinking about why i began to write this blog.
A. i do it because i need an outlet SOMEHOW. and seeing as the people i generally trust have their own issues or hae forgotten me in that light, or for whatever somewhat legit reason i dont hardly talk to anymore (though some of you are still out there), this is the best outlet because of reason b.
B. i sat down to open up the journal mentioned in my prior post given to me by someone i trusted. i realized that i am as over certain events involving that person as i probably will ever be, but seeing it and reading older entries in it... i just dont want to draw up memories of those things.

so i am writing to you... who ever you are out there. and i ask you honestly: "is this somewhere i belong?"