so i felt like the voices should be unleashed again. basically they are just being cruel lately.
torturing me about the mistakes ive made in recent days. telling me ive lost people forever and its all my fault. not letting me live down everything ive done wrong.
i just want to be gone. leave. never have to come back. it doesnt matter where i go or what i do, i just need to go away. or maybe not leave, just go on hyadus, not talk to anyone.
but i dunno. i just want to be free.
or maybe ill just crawl deep down in a hole with a big big bottle of pyrat...
the one thing i really hoped would change when summer came, really the only thing i hoped would change, is my nightmares. theyve been haunting me for months now. let me correct that. one nightmare, singular. for those of you who know about it, you probly think its nothing now, but it still affects me just as bad every single night as it did when it first started. i dont see why anymore. it made sense at first, but now its just a harsh reminder of how things used to be and what theyll never be again. i really hate it. and i get the feeling that the voices are whats causing it....
this is what happens when im left to my own devices
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