today was a wierd day. somehow ive managed to become what i used to be, the guy girls ask about other guys. i dont really get it, i mean i havent been in a relationship in a year, and two of three girls who asked me i hardly talk to anymore. its just lovely.
im worried about the future. about what happens over and after summer. it will change everything. and i dont think im ready for it. some people just need to get their shit together (agreed?). i really dont know what IM planning for the summer and next year. at this point i dont think it matters. i mean... have you ever felt so small and insignificant? like everyone else has made themself a part of something that matters, but i feel like im the only person that hasnt. i just wish i knew what i meant when i typed this shit, cuz to be 100% honest i feel like im running in circles.
i really wish i had something profound to say but i honestly dont. and i really wish i had something to get me away from here but all that little pill did was give me a headache and make it that much harder to pay attention when people asked for advice. god i hate being the bearer of bad news, i shouldve just lied and let her figure it out for herself. i mean at this point it doesnt matter what happens. and i dont really care what happens to people that dont care what happens to me.
wow, i really cant wait to leave this all behind and start over fresh (p.s. my eyes are so fucking red for those of you who actually know what hat means)
"i used too many words tonight..."
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